“I don’t feel sorry for myself but I feel desperately sorry for my poor children who are going to lose their mum.”

I’ve had Type 2 diabetes for 11 years. I started having terrible pains in my chest and stomach and back. I initially thought it was an ulcer. But after being referred to the chest clinic and many scans, I found out after an endoscopy that I had pancreatic cancer.

I’m very tired and weak and spend all day in bed. It’s the only place I feel comfortable. I’m so lucky to have lovely children to look after me as I can do very little. I don’t feel sorry for myself but I feel desperately sorry for my poor children who are going to lose their mum.

I’m quite grateful it took 71 years for the evil cancer to get me. My cancer is inoperable as it’s attached to a main artery to my liver. I’m on palliative chemotherapy which thankfully has taken all my pains away but it won’t cure it. My appetite was terrible. I really struggle to eat and have lost three stone. I’m sure if I could eat more, I may feel a bit better.

I don’t know how long I’ll be here but I’ll try to stay positive.